I thought I’d be able to keep this quiet but I can’t after a flurry of calls I received today.
It is true. I resigned from Diabolic yesterday.
I had a great run there. Nearly 70 or 80 movies.
Jeez, I started off as the webmaster there through Khan Tusion and it took me nearly 4 months to decide to direct there after being offerred cause I was running Meatholes at the time, but I chose to direct there instead. It was a tough decision because I was taking the lines of legends like Mike John and Erik Everhard.
It was an amicable split. The boss, Gregg Alan, and I mutually agreed though it did come as a shock. He told me succinctly that he doesn’t want any director that doesn’t want to be there and I respect him for accepting my resignation.
For this entire month, I took time off after my girlfriend’s miscarriage. I wanted to spend time with her and told Diabolic and my Internet people I did not want to shoot the entire month of March. It was so refreshing and I still will not shoot until April starts. One thing that continuously popped up in my mind was that I did not want to the lines I was shooting, especially that hard ones.
I have nothing but incredible amounts of respect for Gregg the owner and, during the entire time I was there, we were cordial and amicable towards each other.
But it was time for me to move on. I will shoot camera for anyone but have no desire to direct videos for a while. After shooting gangbang auditions, double anals, multiple popshots, 2 girl/1guy scenes (the hardest in my opinion), it just wasn’t fun for me anymore and I realized this month I didn’t want to do it anymore. These lines are expensive and because of my ventures in other areas in the porn world, Diabolic became a smaller source of income for me. It was burning me out, I believe, and my girlfriend’s abortion and subsequent miscarriage made me realize I love her and wanted to spend more time with her while she deals with her emotions.
It’s impossible to shoot at the level and quantity I was shooting and still have time to manage websites at the same time. There are not 48 hours in a day. I want to be my own boss.
I’d like to thank Gregg who I admire greatly for the giving me the first shot to shoot videos (though I shot the majority of the early Meathole scenes). He gave me the freedom to shoot they way I wanted using the best talent I could find. When an owner trusts you to shoot the way you want, hardcore gonzo, and gives you freedom, it doesn’t get any better than that.
Everyone is replaceable. Including myself. It’s time for other directors there to step up to the plate and newer directors to get a shot. I was hoping James Deen who is going to be a considerable force in the future to do so but the choice is not up to me. The young kid was very attentive when I showed him how to shoot in the HD world and is becoming a pretty impressive editor as well. Melissa Lauren is going to be a great director because she has the passion and is a true pervert.
It was an amicable split. It was just time to move on. I will always admire and respect Gregg, the boss there, but again, it is time for me to move on and concentrate on other ventures.
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